Little White Rose of Scotland

 

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Hugh MacDiarmid (1892 – 1978)

I have a hand-written poem dedicated to me … well, that’s an exaggeration. It is actually autographed to me.

The poet whose name I did not know until he put it on paper was invited to my guardian’s flat [an apartment to my American readers] to talk about Scottish literature, an interview of sorts. She told me he was famous.

A child, I had never read a word of his work nor ever met him. I did not know then he was a founder of the independence movement, a gatherer of the Scots tongue, and a rebel. He said, “Yes I am also a communist. I wear the red so that when people see me coming they know what I stand for.” (So much for the oft heard gibe ‘Tartan Tories’.)

My guardian told me not to disturb him and her other guests while they were in conference. I was given a book to read, told to wait until the meeting was over.

When he entered the flat he was ushered hastily into an anti-room almost unseen. From my position at the end of the hall  I caught sight of a shock of white hair, and a long black coat as he move briskly, a short step from outer to inner door and the anti-room. I was barely of an age to tie my shoes, and he, it seemed to me from that momentary glimpse, was very aged indeed.

Why had a poet come to our house? Had he not students to teach, a publisher to meet, an ode to compose? Should he not be striding over the stony crest of a scree-sided, ridgeback, craggy Munro somewhere, rain lashing his face, he unperturbed jotting down giblets of verse, shouting it to noisy crows to check if it scanned?

Curiosity got the better of me.

Adult counsel is of little value to children who are able to think for themselves. I ignored my guardian’s good advice and, holding aloft pencil and a scrap of school lined paper, I rushed through the linoleum clad lobby in my socking feet to the door at the far end, supposedly barred to my entrance. I entered behind a timid tap, tap on the old four-panel, varnish crackled, brass handled door.

The elderly man stood back-lit against the tall Victorian lace windows. He stood motionless, taken aback at my unexpected appearance while he was in mid-speech.

Silence. The people in the room waited as adults might a naughty child to stop talking. My guardian gave me a scowl. Down below, on the railway line than ran along the length of the Edinburgh tenement, a goods engine shuffled and puffed, stiffly, slowly, wagons heavy with coal taken from the Niddrie mines to somewhere. In Pavlovian response the old man took a puff at his pipe. The smoke idled up to the rose on the ceiling.

He had a tangle of thick swept back white hair, his narrow shouldered frame drowned in a long dark, serge blue, big buttoned woollen overcoat that reached to his ankles, as if he was a municipal statue about to be revealed. His moustache was the only trim part of him. His eyebrows were briar patches, his eyes lined and pouched almost panda black, tufts of hair grew out of his ears, his lower lip generous and distended, as if defying gravity.

For a very long minute we studied each other. I held up my stumpy pencil and paper.

He removed the pipe from his pursed lips and spoke down to me.

“Ah dinnae dae autographs, son.”

Crushed. What an anti-climax. To screw up all that courage and be told no thanks, go away. In my head that’s what I heard though he never spoke those words.

What kind of person refuses the flattery of a request for their signature? George Bernard Shaw refused to give donations to worthy causes. Instead he signed postcards and told the lucky recipient to sell it – it was “very definitely worth a pound or two to a collector”. The man in front of me had no care for the conventions of fame.

I said nothing, but my face must have said it all. He saw the hurt, the crumpled gait, for he stopped me as I reached the door.

“Ah tell yi what, son. Ah’ll write yi a wee poem.”

It took him a few minutes to complete. “Whit’s yer name?”

I gave it. He signed his barely legible scribbles and dated the poem.

The Little White Rose

The rose of all the world is not for me.
I want for my part
Only the little white rose of Scotland
That smells sharp and sweet – and breaks the heart.

It is signed – Hugh MacDiarmid.

I have it to this day.

Later in life I saw him interviewed by a group of faithful artists draped around his feet in his Langholm house chatting away for a television documentary of the couthy type BBC Scotland used to offer viewers north of the border as a cultural sop to the natives – but not transmitted down south for the London glitterati to appreciate.

They got cathedral loving Betjeman, Stephen Spender, and the drab library assistant, Philip Larkin, who, come to think of it, we were given too, just to remind us there existed poets of a greater stature, or so we were expected to assume by the attention they got compared to MacDiarmid or McCaig, or any of the other Scottish dominies.

The image of MacDiarmid grated, framed in a large wing-backed chair, that pipe still lodged in his mouth now between stumpy worn teeth, half-smiling, smug as potentate with three wives and a dozen concubines, sage, heroic poet surrounded by drippy acolytes. It seemed uncomfortably over-the-top. I think it still; far too reverential. It differed from my brief youthful meeting with him, when he espoused school master firm, a strict Presbyterian attitude  to shallow celebrity.

Had MacDiarmid gone soft? Did he enjoy fawning respect in his old age? Or was he as curmudgeonly about fickle fans and phoneys as he was all his life?

Perhaps I shouldn’t begrudge an old man acknowledgement that among the knowing he was still relevant. But I do know I must be one the few with that world-famous poem written in his own hand that some say was never his to write.

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3 Responses to Little White Rose of Scotland

  1. Indigo says:

    Absolutely beautiful

  2. Helena Brown says:

    Well that is better than any autograph. Lucky lucky you.

  3. ecapella says:

    A wonderful poem, you are so lucky! Good to be reminded of it during this referendum battle of wills. It could sum up our year.

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